disengage

the last two days have been unexpectedly freeing. 

i somehow have managed to disengage from the madness, and that is liberating.  my ex seems to be having a temper tantrum, and for some reason i'm able to handle it okay, let him have his temper tantrum in the corner somewhere, and be thankful it's no longer my smack dab center in my life, in my home, among my children.  <3  <3 <3

i've heard the phrase:  you can't control what he does, you can only control how you react to it.  it's hard not to get triggered, so very hard.  when slime is thrown at you, you can't help but feel slimy.

today, i don't.  i feel free.  i really can control how i behave and how i react.  today i am strong.  and thankful.  <3  <3  <3