First of all, let me just say I’m so happy my girls had their back-to-school night last night, met their teachers, settled in with their desks and all their school supplies, we are good! This is the first year that DD2 is attending the same school as DD1 and she’s REALLY excited about that (transferred her from her little private school, think she’s ready for the big leagues, lol).
Since DD2 is a little older, the first of the graduated visitation has set in. So this is the first time the girls have been on “his” time on back-to-school night. I’ve always invited him on back-to-school nights prior however. And he would stick like glue. The difference between this back to school night? He kept hurrying the kids and I along so they could say goodbye to me. /eyeroll. The girls felt like they couldn’t walk with me all the time (I encourage them to talk/walk with him when he comes to events on ‘my’ time, but whatever). DD2 was sweet and loving and effusive; DD1 was more reserved and didn’t even look at me to say goodbye. /cry
So a couple of things leading up to this:
Last week end, DD1 had another sleepover, and it was on dad’s week end. She wanted to bring her electronic device, but I wasn’t comfortable with sending it to day camp and having it sit in her backpack in a giant cafeteria all day, so I worked it out with her BFF’s mom that I’d drop it off, and then pick it up from their tennis practice the following Monday. DD1 was ecstatic because there were five girls total who would be there and they’d all be doing Minecraft. (I know, I know, a big deal! Lol)
All went well. Until this past Wednesday, at bed time, when DD1 told me that dad said he wasn’t comfortable that I brought the iPad to her sleepover on “his” time, and that the next time we do that she has to run it by him. And I was like, sweetie it’s not okay for you to have to be the messenger; we’re grown ups, and if dad has an issue he can talk to me directly. And she got super defensive and was like, NO MOM, you’re missing the POINT. I just have to tell him, so he knows if he’s supposed to take it home or not or what. And I was like, sweetie, I talked with YOU and Aunty that we were going to leave it with her since we didn’t want it going to day camp on Monday. And the thing is, we’re grown ups so if dad has issues he can talk to me directly. She got super agitated some more about me missing the point. (Now I just feel bad. I should have said, how does that make you feel or something. Ugh. Mom fail.) Anyway she was just exasperated at me, but we still had a pleasant good night.
Okay, so back to back to school night. The school has been emailing for weeks about how you can check the lists posted at the school during business hours to find out which classroom your child will be in. Since I’ve been in touch with the school about DD2’s transfer, I called and asked, they let me know over the phone. I email Exie a couple of times about how to handle back to school night, let’s meet up at DD2’s class first, since she’s new to the school, then go to DD1’s class after.
All is fine until the day of, when he insinuates by email about how I must be keeping school communications from him, as how did I know what classroom DD2 is in and he does not? (How about, thank you for letting me know about what classroom she’s in? Or call the school yourself? Ugh.)
So cut to back to school night, it’s “his” night, and I think that’s why the girls were acting squirrelly. I see now that he has made a huge deal about “his” time, and the girls know they are to behave accordingly. DD2, in her effusiveness, forgets, and bounces around like a jumping bean and is all cuddly and cute and friendly, and then suddenly remembers and is back at clinging at his side. DD1 is a tween now, so it could just be tweeniness, but her behavior is also a result of his making her feel responsible for his “comfort.” And it makes me sad.
At the end of the day, I have to remember that the kids are all right. They seem happy and are doing well in school, learning, love to spend time with their friends. I have to find a way to not let his nitpicking get to me and some days I’m great at it. Last night, I went home super upset. So I decided to channel my frustrating into lifting weights. It helped for a time, lol, but now i'm sore on top of feeling a little blue. DD1 and DD2 I love you with all my heart, I hope you can feel it.