p.s. as a parent sometimes the pressure to make the right decisions all the time is enormous. weighing the pros and cons of a situation, deciding is it worth a battle over getting her to go put her dirty socks in the hamper, or to just plow through and get into the tub already? she wants to play temple run, well what about reading a book? will her brain melt if she's on the kindle versus using her imagination? it might! or it might not! but i need to get dinner on the table like five minutes ago.
or sometimes, it's big decisions. like a medical provider giving incorrect information. finding a new caretaker or babysitter because the one you trusted might not be as trustworthy as you thought. and doing this alone--can make you feel...so alone.
it can make you feel like crying, maybe. like i did today. i hope this feeling passes. i've already sought support and ideas from my trusted friends and colleagues, and experts in their field. so i will hope it all turns out for the best.